Gay Dreams

I am so excited that there have recently been a few comics lately that have added some main gay characters! There is now The Green Lantern, North Star, and possibly the new Spiderman in the future. I am a little envious of all the gay kids growing up today that have so many fictional characters to relate and look up to. On tv they have Glee and Modern Family, and soon the new show The New Normal. Now they have Super Heroes!

I really look forward to the day when there is a main character in a Hollywood action, fantasy, or scifi movie that is gay. Gay people, or at least this gay dude, want to be able to have adventure, or have super powers, or save the hot guy in distress all while saving the world. We can be strong and courageous too, we don't just like to make things pretty (but our costumes better be fierce!). 

There really is nothing like that out there though. It's always just a straight male lead saving the world, or going on adventures. Sometimes it's a woman, but unfortunately they don't do as well in ticket sales and so they don't get made as often. That's probably why no one will touch a gay lead action/adventure, alien punching, cowboy roping, super power wielding movie, which is really unfortunate. When you do try and search for strictly gay comics they are usually pretty inappropriate, and when it comes to gay literature it's either just as inappropriate or it's really badly written (my experience). Watching gay movies you either get drama or comedy, and sometimes I like to watch something more exciting. I am sure that companies like TLA could produce an action/adventure something-or-other that would be interesting and fun to watch. The acting will probably be shit, but no one watches an action movie for the acting.

What do you guys think?

Lock, Stock, and Two Kissing Guys

Today was an important day for gay rights, which seemingly went unnoticed by most media outlets. Today the 1st U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals declared DOMA unconstitutional. Well, at least one section of it anyway. The part that says that federal benefits can be denied to married same sex couples. It still has to go to the Supreme Court before anything happens, but it is one step closer and it gives me hope, which Harvey Milk would be happy about.

So pending the Supreme Court hearing along with the Prop. 8 case, things are looking pretty good for gay rights. There are only six states as well as Washington D.C. that allow same sex marriage with two more on the way in November. There are all sorts of measures and movements happening all over the country to add more states to this list, and with President Obama's recent support, it seems that it will only get easier and easier. The pieces are coming in to place, and dominoes are beginning to fall. I know it will probably be another five or ten years before there is full legal equality, but to see this all happening now is really exciting.

I am not in a relationship right now, and I don't plan on getting married anytime soon, but someday I would like to. It's nice to see a light at the end of the tunnel. That when the time does come, I probably won't have to worry about waiting or getting married in another state. It will be something interesting to tell my kids about, but something they will never understand as I never understood racial, or gender discrimination.

The views of those, like Rick Santorum or John Bohner,  who scare us the most when it comes to our right to marry those we love, are becoming quickly outdated. Their arguments get weaker and are crumbling apart as more and more people realize that there is nothing to fear from homosexuals, and that letting them marry will not destroy the universe or whatever.

Same sex marriage is going to be a very real thing in the near future. Yes, marriage. Not civil unions or anything else under a different name with the same rights, not even same sex, or gay marriage. It will just be marriage, celebrating the same kind of love everyone else does.

Escape Plans

Pretty much anyone who knows me knows that I don't like Las Cruces that much, or New Mexico for that matter. Some people like the desert and think it's beautiful, and I think they are crazy. If you have seen a speck of dust, you have seen the desert. Now I know not all of New Mexico is desert because I grew up in Ramah, New Mexico and it is actually really beautiful up there. However, New Mexico is a desert in a different way: there is nothing here. At least not for me. So I am going to make my escape, hopefully within a year. So the plan is, like I said earlier, to find some job(s) and save the money, which is really hard for me to do. I will stick with it though! So the next step will be to move. Before I graduated I had dreams of finding an amazing job in Seattle and living in the Capitol Hill district, but it is really hard to find a job somewhere when you don't live there. It's already hard enough when you do live there. I still have that dream and hope it will come true, but I have shifted my plans slightly. I am gonna try and move out to the bay area in the fall with my friend. It will be nice to have somewhere to go and someone who knows the area, so that I can just find something to do for work before I really start looking for a career. All the good writing jobs are in the bigger cities. I feel like one of those kids you see on TV who always say, "I'm gonna move to the city and be a star!" But even if I don't get the job I want right away while I am out there, it will still be better to be a waiter in San Francisco or Seattle, than a Waiter in Las Cruces. There is just no opportunity here. Also, I am young and full of energy still, and there is just not much here for me to spend that on. I have plenty of time to find a job that will start my career, but I don't have all that time to be young and enjoy it. Plus, the gay ratio here sucks. At this rate I am never gonna find a husband, and my clock is ticking. Just kidding, I can't have a baby. But seriously, there are not that many fish in a desert. I also don't want to get to invested in anyone since I am planning on leaving soon. It already sucks that I have to say goodbye to all of my friends, but to have a boyfriend to say goodbye to would suck too, and I just don't do long distance relationships. They don't even work in the movies. And going from here to one of the top two cities for gays per capita would just be too tempting.

After Words

I am gonna do it! I am gonna start blogging. So here it goes:


I just graduated from NMSU, here in sunny Las Cruces, New Mexico. I got my degree in English with an emphasis in creative writing, and now I don't know what to do, and honestly, I am worried about what to do next. I am having a hard time looking for a job. After graduating I was no longer able to work at the job I had on campus where I tutored GED and ESL students in writing. It wasn't the best pay, but I was able to survive. Now, I am unemployed with a degree, and I have no idea what to do with it. I am gonna get my last paycheck in about a week, and I have only had one interview that I have not heard back from. So I am starting to freak out a little bit. I created Monster and Linkedin accounts, and I have looked around for the jobs I would be most interested in. Turns out they don't seem to interested in me. Let me just say, job hunting is already really intimidating, and I mean any kind of job hunting. I got nervous just applying to mall jobs when I first moved to Las Cruces, but now I am looking for a career. Most of the jobs I would like to have are all pretty much the same: at least a years worth of experience, writing samples, and experience with Blogger and/or Wordpress. I am working on the last one. In fact, in one of the last classes I took in school I used Blogger and Wordpress a little, but it wasn't enough to really learn much about them, so I am taking the initiative here. My writing samples consist of short stories and thesis papers, which I am not sure is something employers want to read. I am pretty sure they want to see something that is professional and published, or put on blogs like this. I also don't have much experience in what I want to do. I would really like to be a copywriter or editor, but I just don't have the experience. I tried to find an internship, but they are either unpaid (and I need the money), or they are only for students (too late). So this all leads me to creating a blog. I get the writing experience, the writing samples, and I get to learn how to use Blogger and Wordpress. I am gonna try and make a good habit of posting regularly about anything I fancy. The main goal is to hone my writing skills, find my voice, and have something to reference to (here you go future employer). Of course, I would really like Percury to become something bigger, and I have a plan for that, but for now I am starting small. In the mean time I am gonna start looking for a job, any job and maybe two or three. I am gonna save up, and try and get out of New Mexico and move to the west-coast somewhere, preferably Seattle or San Francisco. I am determined, and I just have to keep my goals in mind. I can't get lazy, which I can be prone to sometimes, and I can't lose sight of what I want.